I'm getting really nervous for placement. My teacher tell us that as soon as we get out there, everything we have learned in class goes out the window. No one uses the text book. She also tells us that we are going to see so much abuse and some things are going to make us so uncomfortable that we will probably want to quit right then and there. On top of all this, she tells us to stick by it, that the job is really rewarding. I agree. I understand what she is saying - In my opinion: If you are witnessing these things then leaving and quitting this field of work, you are not helping the situation. You would pretty much be turning a blind eye. You can help the situation by sticking around and doing the best you can do, and being the best you can be. Like my teacher always says, we can change it "One PSW at a time."

UFC

I am not really into UFC - I have seen only a few fights. Brad (my boyfriend) really enjoys that stuff, and got us tickets to see the fights in Toronto for tomorrow night. I'm actually pretty excited for this :) We are going with his brother and his brother's girlfriend.

I have a hard time letting go of things - especially people. What can you do? If someone isn't going to give you the time of day, why should you continue trying to keep the friendship alive.

I need to start going to the gym again. I have a membership, but I feel as if there isn't enough hours in the day. I don't really 'need' to lose any weight, but it would be nice to lose around 15 lbs for the summer!

I think it's safe to say that I have the most amazing boyfriend, ever. Picks me up from school and surprises me with these:

I know it's not only me.

I wonder why everyone gets so nervous to present their work to other people. Myself included. I am in a Personal Support Worker program and today I had to present a project on Renal Failure to my class of about only 16 females and 2 males. Sounds easy enough, right? Wrong! This past weekend was Easter. I spent the whole weekend stressing over this project, making sure everything was perfect. I mean, I know everyone gets a little on edge, and the nerves start to flare before they get infront of the room full of people. It just makes me wonder, why. You spend days on end with these people, you'd think as time goes on you would be more comfortable around them all.
-- At the end of it all, I think I did a pretty good job!

It's been this way for as long as I can remember. I don't remember a time when I haven't been a worry wart. I am currently getting into the nursing profession, as weird as that may seem concidering I am a complete germaphobe and have an intense fear of death.

-- This will be interesting.